What if
I stopped
What if one day
I was gone
All the affection
All the adoration
Gone
Would you care
Would you notice
Yes it know its pathetic
The trail of thought I dwell in
But it’s valid
You may not like it
You may not approve
You may ignore it
But lets face it
You do that already
So I’m pretty used to it
What if
I pretended
What if one day
I lied
And told you
The love was gone
Would that make a difference
Would you speak to me then
Yes I know this question
Is horribly pathetic
But it’s valid
I’m not like the others
That lust after your attention
If you don’t love me
It doesn’t matter
But you tell me you like me
That we’re friends
But I don’t know
Where I even stand
Are you scared
Because I promise you
I’m harmless
I just need to know
For as much as losing you
As a kindred friend
Would hurt me
The not knowing
Is breaking me
What if
We were honest
No pretending
No lies
What if one day
We actually talking
Like really talked
Not about unrequited love
Not about fantasy lives
About who we are
What we can mean
To each other
Its rare in the chaotic world
To find a kindred spirit
I know it’s a lot to ask
To let someone in
With as much baggage
And damage
As I have
But if we just talk
Maybe we can find
Balance
Be supportive
And encouraging
What if
We started
Being the friends
That will make life
Work
But I can’t continue
To be the only one
Doing the work
If you want to fade away
That’s okay
I’ll get the message
Eventually
But don’t go
And abandon something
Without asking yourself
What if I mean anything
What if I’m worth it
What if…
Cameron D Hamilton 10/09/2016
right in the feels 😭
can you visit mine? 😊
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It really is. 😔
Glad you enjoyed it though
I’m out of date with a few blogs right now and will be doing a ready day tomorrow I shall add you to the list!
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I’ve asked these questions and know this feeling. Well done. Check lines 10 & 11..I tripped there. 😉
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Desperate questions searching for nothing more than an actual answer same than indifferent silence.
So very pleased you liked this!!
Ah yes…thank you so much for the line check. Note to self don’t schedule posts at 3am when you’ve not slept in 36 hours. silly me 😋
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Beautiful and heartfelt. I would so much rather know, speak, fight it out than be met with silence.
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It’s really maddening especially when you have such affection and admiration for the other person. it makes you feel bad about who you are.
I’m glad you enjoyed this, I wanted to do audio but it was scheduled at 3am and I was in desperate need of sleep
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Yeah, it’s a self esteem hit for sure. But just remember you’re awesome and if this person can’t see it, it is their loss. ❤️
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Aww!!! You do make me feel quite special 💛🍍💛
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You are! (Did you tell me the pineapple thing yet?)
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Not yet, just know for now it’s ‘special’ 🙃
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When do I get to know? Such a tease!
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Soon my dear, very soon, it’s part of the batch of pieces I have scheduled for October while I’m travelling.
Besides you enjoy a good tease 😋
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Ha ha, true. Ok, I can wait.
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YOU CAN’T GIVE AWAY MY PINEAPPLES!!!!
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My dear they’re not your pineapples if anything the pineapples belong to my sister. Just be proud to have recieved one, it’s a special gift 😄
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No! I steals them ALL!!!
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…🤔 …erm …no!
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Wonderfully touching, Cameron. 🙂 ❤
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Also, I wrote a poem called “What If” and posted it shortly before this one appeared in my feed! Some similarities, too. 😉
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Thank you so much, it’s a lovely little cry to someone that may not listen.
Did you do a ‘what if ‘ as well ahaha. Well I am so very behind on reading. I’m sure I’ll see it soon.
…as to similarities that’s to be expected when we explore the same poetic world’s and can work together quite wonderfully. I’d say in sync but I prefer chaotically empathetic.
😄💜
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