Sweet Dreams

On By Cameron D HamiltonIn Poetry

 

 

I had that dream again

You know the one

It’s the only one

That ever gets to me

The one with the infernal

Taunting and teasing

Torturous tempting

The subconscious lusting

To indulge and feed

That one last vice

I just can’t ignore

Yearning to taste

Just

Once

More

 

 

Even in the dream

I know how I should act

I must be good

I must behave

I’ve done so very well

But the dream it doesn’t care

It simply wants to explore

My subconscious takes over

It makes all my decisions

Surrenders to my lust

Goes looking around

For my hidden desires

Each and every possibility

While I’m vulnerable

At sleep

 

 

It’s an innocent dream

But it triggers lucidity

As in the dream I fail

Succumbing to my vice

Feeling the rush

As if it were real

Savouring that taste

Giving myself over

To its sweet delights

Until the rush is replaced

The cool soothing taste

Now the chills of regret

Guilt for abandoning

My dietary decision

To abstain

From sugar

 

 

Dream warped by lucid angst

Challenging my willpower

I love sweet sugary delights

But right now

I’ve chosen to stay away

It means sacrificing treats

That were once taken for granted

In the waking world im strong

In dreams I’m not in control

Willpower merely an ideal

That doesn’t exist at sleep

Still

As lucidity weaves its way

Into my sleeping story

All the guilt of failure

All the immediate remorse

Shakes me to wake

 

 

Relief to realise it’s only a dream

One that’s too regular

In its themes

Maybe my body is telling me

It’s time

All the good work

Has been successful

You’re no longer a slave

To the calls of gluttony

So why continue

Why continue

To deny yourself a treat

Deny yourself something

You clearly crave

It’s an internal debate

Neither of us will win

I refuse to give in

Refuse to surrender

And in return

In defiant revenge

I’m rewarded

With torturous dreams

 

 

Last night I had that dream

You know the one

The really annoying one

That sounds silly

When said aloud

But torments me

Quite a lot

The one where I give in

To something I’ve been avoiding

And all of its iced cold

Refreshing

Indulgent

Satisfying delights

To the pleasures

Of a forgotten taste

Stored in my subconscious

Of the amazing wonder

That is

Ice cream

Ice Cream Image.jpg

Cameron D Hamilton 27/08/2016

19 thoughts on “Sweet Dreams”

    1. Ahahahaha!!!! Yeah, maybe just a little. This’ll be the last one for a while on ice cream although it does seem to show up a lot in my work.
      Fortunately the guilt passes….The desire does not!
      Regardless it’s far more important to me you enjoyed this I was a fun piece to write!

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      1. VictoryInTrouble

        I’m glad the guilt passes. When will you get to eat it again? My birthday is coming up and I am looking forward to making myself sick with cake. 😄😄

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        1. Well I’m planning this big state hopping trip to America. I recently quit my job that was killing me and I came to the idea that maybe don’t jump into a new job go travel a bit. I’ve never done it before so best do it now while I’m free to.
          Hoping to get away mid September just waiting on my passport so as soon as I’m on ‘foreign’ soil I’ll relax my good behaviour.

          Oh is it indeed! I can’t believe you’re 23 already. Wow! Well go crazy with cake, you deserve a little indulgence!! 😄❤

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            1. I’m so terribly sorry, girls are sometimes really hard to age correctly. I’m dreadfully sorry, you’re only an adorable 18 😄

              Nothing is set but the plan is move west to east coast LA to NYC. I’d like to hit Boston and DC, I had this idea to visit baseball parks but I might not see many as the regular season comes to a close and post season tickets will be ridiculously priced…but I might still try.
              I’m working out a proper route this week and am probably going to be asking for suggestions. I figure I have a month and a half max as I have to be home before November 4th but plenty of time to explore

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              1. VictoryInTrouble

                Ha! 18!! Not even close! I’m an old lady, Cameron. 😀
                Oh that sounds fun! Coast to coast! When you come to Boston, swing by and pick me up. I want to go traveling!!

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                1. You’re only as old as you feel and I’m sure you feel…actually I’m going to stop there before I embarass myself 😶

                  It’s a date! You’ll have to show me the delights of Boston first, although something tells me youre the main one 😄💜

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                1. No everything is going to spam but I got distracted last night and havent gotten to replies till now. Might have to let support know they’ll likely need to fix it.
                  Im good at catching the replies though. For now just think of it as having your own exclusive folder…
                  It’ll now be know as the SPAM folder for SPecially Anticipated Messages 😄

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