[Today was not a good day. I went back to work and I lasted all of ten minutes before the panic took over and I had to leave. I wrote this on the bus on the way back home.]
They watch my return
With pitying eyes
My stomach starts to churn
trying not to cry
I know they don’t care
I’m beyond hope
These emotions aren’t fair
Not sure I can cope
I don’t want to be here, have I made a big mistake
I return, but I’m not sure if i’ll be able to remain
That’s so deep. At times, I too feel like that. Nevertheless, life is beautiful and we already have so many blessings. There’s so much to cheer up on, that I feel no time for lamenting.
Smile and all your worries will go away.
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Thank you for the positive thoughts, I’ll try and hold on to them. Just not been my best day. I’m glad you liked this it was just a few thoughts as I travelled home this morning.
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The bad is the sign that something good is about to happen. Just don’t leave the hope. And I must say, you articulate your thoughts very well in verses. Keep up the good work!
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Thank you so much, that’s so very kind of you so say. I’ll not give up on hope or my writing!!
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That’s the spirit! 🙂
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Thanks for the support it really means a lot!
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cam, why u getting panic attacks? omg
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I think the best description is work related stress. I had a bit of a breakdown a couple weeks ago after a manager basically taunted me for being depressed and pushed all the right buttons. Cut to today, first day back and I freak out. Not fun and really unexpected, I mean I know I’m not exactly happy there but this was new.
It’s nothing serious but I’m still concerned.
I actually took a page out of your book and walked down the harbour to the beach to calm down. There was this adorable duck family, a mother a three ducklings. I couldn’t get decent photos from my phone though.
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I played that scenario many times – at one point took a 6-week LOA – I had a tough time putting names to faces when I returned – I lasted about another year but my next eval wouldn’t have been glowing, based solely on my attendance (or lack of it) — I eventually took disability retirement (but I had a pension to lean on as well as the SS…) — I encourage you to stand fast to your ultimate survival – change jobs if it helps –
I moved around the agency for greener pastures within the same framework & that always helped… ❤
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Ultimately that’s the plan, I don’t want to leave i like my job but the people I work for kill me. Thanks for the encouragement and support. It’s extremely appreciated right now!! It’s terrible so many of us have to go through it. I long for the day where I find something that truly nourishes my spirit, mad as it is 😄
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Yes, office politics can be so unnerving… I hope you find your niche! 🙂
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Me too 😄 Thanks again for the support!
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Don’t worry slowly yet surely your life will see what u want
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I certainly hope so, that’s for the support, it’s well needed and appreciated 😊
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