When I’m not at work, I spend my time alone
Keeping to myself, barely leaving home
Little human contact, a modern day hermit
My world self contained, my life disconnected
I’ve forgotten how to engage, with the world outside
Choosing reclusion, you’d be forgiven, if you thought I’d died
Without malice, friends and family have been quietly neglected
How did I let myself becomes so extremely disconnected
Nothing that I’ve done so far, really makes a difference
Interacting with the world I’ve succumbed to bitterness
No matter what I’ve tried, it’s never been effective
It’s no wonder that I’m hurt and ended up so disconnected
My social life in tatters, but is the fault all mine?
The only time I’m sociable is when I go online
Disappearing from the world, should have been expected
The Internet sedates me, whenever I’m connected
Is this all my life can be, digitally detached
I dream of being able, to make a real impact
Still I’m scared, that I could, never be respected
If I take a chance to become reconnected
As more birthdays pass, I know I’m missing out
I want to see the world, but my head is wracked with doubts
Self worth and anxiety have left my mind infected
I lack the courage needed, if I want to be fee connected
At my age I expected, so much more to my life
A world that I can play in, maybe sharing with a wife
Instead I hide and dwell on pains, the world cruelly inflicted
Is it safer here not risking strife and remain here unconnected
The people from my youth have already said goodbye
Neglected for too long, I missed their lives go by
Adventures all without me, feeling quite dejected
I long to find a way in which we could be reconnected
Lonely and forgotten, my world in my bedroom
Over-analysing everything, utterly consumed
Needing an escape and for my path to be corrected
Ending these reclusive ways, no more being disconnected
Could you recommend, a good way for me to start?
One that won’t break, my already fragile heart
My life to date, has far too may tales of rejection
I want to be accepted in the world and feel connected.
In response to Daily Prompt Connected
That connected straight to my soul. One of the most amazing poems I’ve read. Keep up the good work!
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Oh wow! Thank you so much. I think it hit something in me, I saw the prompt today and the words just spilled out. I so glad ot reached you, thank you so much for the kind words!!!
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That’s deep. Phew! I love it, you speak through it. That’s a story, a true story and I love it.
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Thank you!! It’s way more honest than I expected when I started, the poem wrote itself I just tried not to get ink on my hand. I’m glad you like it, it’s quite the statement for me today.
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Wow, this is perfect description of getting disconnected 😊
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Thank you!! It does have quite a helpless vibe while being a cry for help. I’m glad you enjoyed this, it’s been an unintentionally personal piece.
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Acceptance is not a big thing u have to take the that first step for that mile start today soon u will love it
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Always the scariest and hardest one to take. Thank you so much for the encouragement, I really appreciate it!!!
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Need not to stay connected with outer world
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It’s a struggle for me. I know I’m missing out but it’s not easy
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Hey, I have tagged you in Leibster award. For more details visit my recent post 🙂
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Awww thank you so much!! I’ll have to keep on shaeing my nonsense in order to be worthy of this!!!
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Take your time 🙂
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